The Diary of Jane Doe.

i really don’t know what to do to fix me, i want to make new friends, but i can never hold them for very long. i wish i could remember what else i left behind.

so i was surfing facebook and i saw a picture of girls, and my first thought was who are these people? do i know them? because they looked familar, but after concluding that i didn’t know them, i realized that they looked familar because i knew girls who looked, acted, posed, talked they way that they did. it’s weird to think that in every school there’s a group of people who are sluts, jocks, pot heads, etc. and they’re basically all the same with different faces. eventually we evolve into individuals, but for those first couple years we all get put into a group no matter if we want to or not.

i’m trying not to sound selfish

but i’m just upset.. i worked really hard and i’ve put up with a lot of shit and i know that hardly anyone really watched our segment on fox, but i was literally on it for one second. i even put on make up and tried to look nice and i might as well have not been on there. it just makes me sad that people probably thought that i was the alternate. they didn’t even want me there because i “blocked the initial shot”. it’s no big deal i guess, it just would have been nice. i was kind of looking forward to it…